Category Archives: Depression & Anxiety

My Ugly Journey

Posted on January 26, 2020 by davidtkukulkan

Sometimes it actually is about the destination and not journey. Once again my life is on hold. And it sucks. It’s difficult to concentrate enough to even write this. Everyday every breath is a struggle like there’s a perpetual tightness … Continue reading →

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You Are Not Alone

Posted on January 20, 2019 by davidtkukulkan

First, an update on the physical changes. Voice: a definite drop in it, cracks a lot which is annoying, but won’t be forever. Hair: Hair is everywhere, I found some on my toes!!!! Back, stomach, legs. Basically hair everywhere except … Continue reading →

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The Dark Side

Posted on January 13, 2019 by davidtkukulkan

I know how it feels to love the night, but only because we’re all perfect in the dark. It’s comforting to be wrapped in the pitch as though no one could see the emptiness where your soul should be, or … Continue reading →

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I Fear The Winter And Dream Of Spring

Posted on December 30, 2018 by davidtkukulkan

I fear the winter.  I have nightmares where I wake up and the green leaves of Summer have given way to bare trees and snow; conversely, I also dream of Spring and return of life and color. By mid-Fall the … Continue reading →

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Family Is Everything…. Except When It Comes To Being Yourself

Posted on December 23, 2018 by davidtkukulkan

It’s been awhile since I posted, been a bit crazy with the new job. I love it. Finally I get to be out in the open and be myself. Everyone there is super supportive and always has a ton of … Continue reading →

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Obligatory Update

Posted on July 8, 2018 by davidtkukulkan

The function of this blog seems to always be changing, or at least vague and multifaceted. It’s served as an online journal of sorts, a writing portfolio, and just a general platform for my voice – which itself changes. For … Continue reading →

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The Future is a Thicket

Posted on March 10, 2014 by davidtkukulkan

The past ‘n’all my love a blasted ruin City of the dead consumed by desert Rebuilt again ‘n’again, what else ‘s’worth doin’ Sand foundations, falling always to dirt   The future, it is a thicket of thorns Strang’ling each limb, … Continue reading →

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Cigarettes

Posted on March 1, 2014 by davidtkukulkan

Anti-smoking ads give me that craving For a lit cigarette slowly burning Killing me, my sanity it’s saving When I inhale the darkness stops churning   Poison less toxic than my memories Black lungs better than cancer in my mind … Continue reading →

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