Third Parties Are A Joke

Here in the good ol’ US of A, people are always saying how they wish we had third parties. But we have lots of them. A couple dozen in fact, even more if you include various State specific parties. But they seem to do very little except take your money every four years when they pretend they have real shot at winning the presidential election. That’s because third parties are a joke and your votes are wasted on them.

Congress only has three independents in the Senate, Bernie Sanders, Kyrsten Sinema, and Angus King, and apparently none in the House. Sinema ran and got elected as Democrat then switched so she could pretend she’s just a maverick independent thinker after she helped tank progressive legislation for her Big Pharma donors. While King and Sanders were both elected as Independents, they caucus with the Democrats. And the only reason Sanders ran such successful and influential presidential campaigns is because he ran as Democrat. That’s not because Democrats inherently have politics better than the Greens, let’s say, but because they have money and an established electoral infrastructure. So even the members of Congress who aren’t technically affiliated with a major party are also not affiliated with any other party. There have been four times as many people on the Moon and almost seven times more people get struck by lightning annually than there are independents -let alone third party members- in Congress.

Surely, things must be better at the State level, right? After all, local races are easier than national ones and can be decided just a handful of votes. Not really. There are 7,386 state legislature seats in the US and only 94 of those are “independent, other, or vacant.” Most of those are Independents, some of whom ran as established party members then left like Sinema, a few are Libertarians -some of whom also left their parties after being elected- then a couple more from various other parties. 676 people have been to space, 116 people have served on the Supreme Court, four fucks sack, Game of Thrones has more named characters than there are third party spots in Congress.

There’s been a handful of times where third party candidates out performed expectations in presidential elections, but at best they accomplished literally nothing while at worst they acted as a spoiler and tarnishing the idea of third party runs altogether. Not one has ever won the presidency -no, Lincoln wasn’t third party– and most don’t even achieve ballot access in every state.

Ross Perot had the most successful third party run, certainly in modern history and living memory. Almost 20 million people, 18.9% of the country, voted for Perot in the 1992 election. He spent tens of millions of dollars of his own money, aired infomercials, had his name on the ballot in every state; he won no electoral votes and carried no states. He ran again in 1996 and won less than half the votes he won last time.

To be fair, third parties have a lot to contend with, first and foremost is first-past-the-post voting: whoever gets a plurality of the votes wins, which makes sense until you consider the spoiler effect. A simple example: three candidates run, the Democrat gets 40% of the vote, a Green candidate who shares a number of policy positions with the Democrat gets 15% and the Republican that shares no policies with either of them gets the remaining 45%. Well 55% of voters wanted someone who supports what the Democrat and Green supported, but they lost. There’s also the issue of how people perceive third party candidates, in no small part because of the spoiler effect, as unserious and incapable of winning. That’s not all third parties need to contend with: sometimes policies and platforms overlap significantly with the stated (if not always achieved or even fought for) policies and platforms of major parties; the two major parties also have name recognition, media attention, ballot access in every state, and war chests with more money than the GDP of entire countries.

To be more fair, if a third party candidate has no strategy to overcome all these obstacles other than magically expecting people rally to them in en masse, they don’t deserve, and are unfit, to be president. For most people, third parties are like February 29th, they see them once every four years, it’s kind of neat, except third parties ask you for money. If they want to be taken seriously they need to do more than show up during presidential elections expecting they have a chance with almost no groundwork.

They could, and should, start with a single state, focus all the funds there, keep pushing for ranked chance voting which would remove lots of the aforementioned barriers, build up a loyal voting base, prove both their viability and seriousness. Turn just one state Green. Then keep doing it in others. If they want to run a presidential candidate before they even try laying the groundwork run in one of major parties like Sanders did and while its still a long-shot, if they win the nomination they managed to overcome the issues of ballot access, limited campaign finances, media exposure, name recognition, first-past-the-post, and the spoiler effect.

If for some misguided, vote-your-conscience purity, bullshit reason you still feel inclined to vote for these people outside of a primary, or local race, I honestly don’t know what you’re expecting to happen. Maybe you don’t expect them to win, but instead want to use it at a protest vote, a chance to show the the mainstream parties they need to earn your vote (which they should, but don’t) how’d that work out for the Left in 2016? Did those protest votes for Jill Stein move the Democrats further left? Did they decide to run better candidates? Did they decide to run on more than “Trump Bad?” No, they blamed Jill Stein voters for Trump’s electoral win and continued doing the exact same shit. It’s almost like they’re out of touch oligarchs who would rather see Trump win again than fundamentally change anything.

It’s a grim assessment of our political reality, but you’re not voting for who’s gonna be your spouse, or best friend, you’re voting for your opponent: who do you want the obstacle to change and a better world to be?

~David T.K.~

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McCarthyism 2: Israeli Boogaloo

Memba McCarthyism? You know, when people (usually left-leaning) were accused, publicly smeared, and investigated of being communists. Remember, when various state and private institutions used harassment, intimidation, threats of unemployment, and even arrests to silence dissent and opposition? Against child labor? Communist! Pro-unions? Communist! Insist your children learn to share their toys? Communist!


Actually, that never really went away, just the mass hysteria isn’t as powerful, or wide-reaching as it was back in it’s prime fear-mongering days. But holy shit, if you have something critical to say about Israel, well that makes you not just ant-Semitic, but a terrorist sympathizer. You’re giving aid and comfort to enemies of the United States which makes also makes you an anti-American traitor!


Maybe it’s my media bubble, but I’ve seen more condemnation of valid, good-faith criticism of Israel as anti-Semitism than I’ve seen condemnation of actual anti-Semitism or even calls for genocide. The government of Israel is committing acts of terror throughout Gaza and West Bank, but if you dare to point that out, or even modestly criticize the increasingly high civilian death toll, well you just hate Jewish people. If you unironically believe this, that criticism of Israel, or Zionism, are inherently anti-Semitic, then I’m sorry that the public school system failed you as it has failed so many, but it could also be you have cognitive deficits that lead to you failing the public school system. There’s no shame in that, we all have our strengths and we can’t all be thinking individuals capable of nuance and empathy.


What we’re seeing now is the weaponization of anti-Semitism, just as anti-communism was weaponized, to silence the opposition and handwave away dissent. While we haven’t reached the same fever pitch as the Red Scare, and hopefully we wont, it’s clear some people want us heading down that road again either because they’re idiots, or evil.

I’ve previously mentioned that even before the siege of Gaza, there are multiple US states that have unconstitutional anti-BDS laws essentially requiring contractors to sign a loyalty pledge to Israel.
Ilhan Omar was smeared as an anti-Semite because she tweeted “It’s all about the Benjamins, baby” in regards to AIPAC, an Israeli lobbying group that attempts to buy influence in Congress. Which is what lobbying is. The intentional liars, or genuinely stupid, believed she was saying Jewish people are trying to buy influence, or only care about money – which are anti-Semitic tropes. But, for the illiterates among us, she never mentions Jewish people, she’s criticizing a lobbying group for doing what lobbying groups do, this one just happened to be Israeli. And for those keeping track at home, not all Jews are Israeli, and not all Israelis are Jewish. In fact, this purposeful conflation between Israelis and Jews -and as well see later Zionists- is far more anti-Semitic than Omar’s comments, but is a recurring theme both here in the US and abroad which has only increased in both frequency and absurdity since Israel began turning Gaza into rubble.


Shortly after her comments, but totally not targeting her, Congress passed a resolution condemning anti-Semitism and other forms of bigotry. More recently however, for some reason, this dark-skinned Muslim woman was targeted by Republicans and removed from the Foreign Affairs Committee because of those same comments. Meanwhile, they vociferously defend anything and everything some people say. Imagine if she said MAGA was poisoning the blood of our country.


Greta Thunberg released a picture of herself and a few friends holding signs in support of Gaza, but beside her was something insidious: a plush octopus. Thunberg, famous for her climate activism, isn’t well know for her links to white supremacist’s, use of Nazi rhetoric, or generalized anti-Semitism, but clearly her use of an octopus is a Nazi dog-whistle. While the image of an octopus whose tentacles wrap around and seize control of the world has a long history in political cartoons, including Nazi propaganda, it seems far more likely it’s just a plush octopus. In fact, she even explained that it’s used as a tool by some autistic people to help convey emotion. She apologized and took down the original photo, which she shouldn’t have because any one sincere in their belief that she used this as a Nazi dog-whistle is truly deluded, and anyone intelligent wasn’t acting in good-faith.


Taking it down wasn’t enough, however. She, and all those who identify with her, were labelled as a terrorist sympathizers by an Israeli military spokesperson. Israel even responded on the website formerly known as Twitter by saying Hamas rockets aren’t made with sustainable materials – implying she’s supporting Hamas, despite they’re lack of commitment to environmental issues.


Rashida Tlaib called for a ceasefire, but she also used the phrase “From the river to sea, Palestine will be free.” Tlaib explained, in addition to a ceasefire, she was calling for a single-state solution where both Palestinians and Israelis enjoy equal rights and protections under the law. Although that phrase predates Hamas, sure, you can make the argument that she shouldn’t use that it since they’ve coopted it – and when Hamas says “from the river to sea” they’re giving off major genocide vibes for sure.


But thankfully, the US House was able to put partisanship aside and come together in condemning her calls for peace and unity.


The US House also passed a bill condemning anti-Semitism, which is great, but that same bill also equates anti-Zionism with anti-Semitism, which is less great, in fact it’s so not great its been condemned by Jews as anti-Semitic. Zionism is essentially the belief and movement that there should be an official Jewish State and that state should be the ancestral home of the Jewish people. It doesn’t sound so bad at first. But an official state for Muslims, or Christians would be bordering on, if not explicitly, a Theocracy. An official state for any ethnic group, say white people for example, would be an ethnostate. Then there’s the question of where are the borders of this ancestral homeland of the Jews? Depends who you ask. Some Zionists believe in making Israel whole which includes the West Bank and Gaza, some believe in a Greater Israel which includes land claimed by other nations; regardless there’s already people living in these places. Of course we can’t forget about the Christian Zionists who believe Israel needs to be remade whole in order to fulfill a prophecy about the End Times which is a super healthy, normal, and not at anti-Semitic belief that requires no further examination.


Israel has thousands of political prisoners, including children, activists, and protestors who will receive a military trial. Also the IDF has killed a truly shocking number of journalists and sometimes their families too. Like if anybody else killed that many journalists you’d probably start to think that maybe, just fucking maybe it was on purpose. Here at home, we’ve also had protestors arrested while also being smeared as terrorists, and the Anti-Defamation League even wrote an open letter to Universities urging them to investigate protests and student groups for “materially supporting terrorism.” At least one University in DC has called on the FBI to investigate the bold and heinous acts of poster vandalism while others have dissolved student groups opposed to the mass killing of civilians.


Are there bigots out there who support Hamas because they hate Jews? Obviously. But no one with any real significance or power is doing that. While members of Congress and the Israeli government get a free pass to deny civilians exist in Gaza and call for the entire strip be turned into a fucking parking lot– amongst other genocidal rhetoric easily recognized as such if it came from someone like Putin- anti-Semitism is being weaponized by individuals, organizations and even the State to deflect any and all criticism of Israel’s war crimes.


We can have a debate over where the limits of free-speech are, whether or not you should lose your job, be kicked out school, censured by Congress, or investigated by the FBI for simply saying something, but it sure as shit ain’t calling for an end to ethnic cleansing.

~David T.K.~

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Maybe The Response To War Crimes Shouldn’t Be More War Crimes

It seems like no matter what you’re take is, if it’s about Israel and Hamas it’s gonna be a hot take.


In one corner, we have Hamas, a piece of shit, religious extremist terrorist organization that targets civilians at concerts and in their homes. It’s been said that some of the details of their atrocities may be propaganda, or may be unintentional misinformation spawned in the fog of war, but at the end of the day I’m not going to debate exactly how atrocious their atrocities were: I’m not going to debate did they behead babies, or just kill the babies as if I could get behind one of those two insane options.


However, even if they were a legitimate liberation force hitting military targets, I’m not sure how much support I could give to a group of religious fundamentalists that’s deeply authoritarian. There hasn’t been an open election since Hamas took control around 18 years ago; civil liberties are restricted, there are violent crack downs on protests, intimidation and persecution against media are not uncommon, blasphemy is a criminal offense, people have been tortured and killed for being gay.


So between the terrorism and oppression you’ll have to forgive me if I don’t accept that this is just what “decolonization looks like” as some donkey-brained “leftists” have proclaimed. Thankfully, the people saying this profoundly stupid shit may be loud, but there’s not very many of them and they hold little to no power or influence. Of course there’s also the anti-Semites who just hate Jews who show up to the pro-Palestinian side of things, or are pro-Hamas, and they should all 100 percent go to Gaza and see how that works out for them. This has of course led to the slandering of anybody with the meekest criticism of Israel, or a call for ceasefire, to be labelled by the Right-Wing ghouls and most Dems as anti-Semitic and terrorist sympathizers while they simultaneously clutch their pearls and call for the leveling of Gaza.


In the other corner we have Israel: a recognized state with a very advanced and well funded military – likely the most advanced and well funded in the region- that in all likelihood has nuclear strike capabilities. While Gaza is officially under the control of Hamas, it is not a recognized state, or recognized as part of any other state and is effectively under Israeli control. By blockading Gaza, they control what, and who, goes in and out including food, water, and electricity. They have created what numerous human rights orgs have condemned as the world’s largest open-air prison and a system of apartheid. When Palestinians protest these conditions they are again met with brutality ranging from tear gas to live ammunition. Similar events occur in the West Bank, but with the addition of settlers just straight up moving into Palestinian homes and illegally seizing their land – acts that have widely been condemned by both human rights orgs and the international community.


Instead of what should have been an intelligence and special forces operation to capture, or kill, terrorists we have Israel’s dick waving response to Hamas which is to commit war crimes, only bigger. Collective punishment is considered a war crime and cutting over 2 million people off from food, water, and electricity sure sounds a lot like collective punishment. Entire bloodlines in Palestine have been snuffed out, over a million people were told to just fucking leave North Gaza, which sounds like mass murder and mass displacement of a specific group of people, it sounds like they’re trying to cleanse the region of a certain ethnicity, maybe there’s a word for that, but I don’t work for Webster’s.


Proponents of Israel will say how the IDF goes out of their way to warn civilians before bombing neighborhoods, schools, and hospitals. If only Russia had simply warned Ukraine, if they just warned the civilians in the civilian infrastructure they targeted it wouldn’t be such a big deal or worthy of war crimes investigations. Unfortunately, we also have Hamas countering by encouraging people to remain, but I have to wonder if that encouragement isn’t at the barrel of a gun. Hamas is also criticized for using human shields, but of course they do: first they’re authoritarian terrorists, and secondly if they had legit military bases they’d be turned into glass and rubble.


Then their are the truly deranged with members amongst Israeli officials, US politicians, and Right-Wing commentators trying to argue that there are no civilians in Gaza because they voted for Hamas. I struggle to comprehend how rock hard a person’s brain must be to make this argument. The last election in Gaza was around 18 years ago, yet over 50 percent of the population of Gaza is 18 or younger. So not only is that argument false, but you can use it to justify killing civilians anywhere: the World Trade Centers were legitimate targets on 9/11 because the people in those towers voted for the people implementing the foreign policies that pissed off Bin Laden; all those war crimes the United States committed after 9/11 would also justify killing innocent US citizens; god damn, Hamas could say the same fucking thing – those Israeli families voted for the Israeli government that’s been brutalizing Gaza.


Both Israel and the US, despite being considered democracies, have also been cracking down on free speech. In the US, several states, even before the Hamas attack, have BDS (Boycott, Divest, Sanction) bans, some even go so far as to have you sign a loyalty pledge to Israel as part of a contract for certain jobs. In Israel, critics of their state’s treatment of Palestinians have been fired and arrested because the people in charge have very smooth-brains and cannot discern between concern for human life and support for Hamas; Al Jazeera may be banned from the country for reporting on war crimes. Journalists have been previously intimidated and 20 have been killed by the IDF since 2001.


If Israel continues down this path it will wound itself far more than Hamas ever could, just like the US wounded itself 9/11 far more after than Al Qaeda ever could: the curtailing of civil liberties, increasing mass surveillance, endless wars costing trillions of dollars, the lives of thousands of US soldiers, the physical and mental well being of thousands more, hundreds of thousands – millions, depending on the source – of foreign civilians killed, and a hard right-ward shift towards fear and xenophobia that only benefited war-profiteers. We could have invested those trillions into healthcare, education, renewable energy and energy independence, infrastructure, the god damn removal of lead pipes which is something we still haven’t done and we could have.


To be clear, Israel should and must root out and destroy Hamas, but it cannot be at the expense of their own civil liberties or the intentional displacement and murder of civilians. It cannot be a focus on “damage over accuracy.”

~David T.K.~

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Sometimes It’s About The Destination


Rates of depression and anxiety are skyrocketing; both intentional suicides and overdoses are rising sharply; loneliness is shooting up as the number of close friends people have continues to fall; people are waiting longer to get married and have kids if at all. While this mental health epidemic impacts all demographics, it might be surprising to learn it’s been especially pronounced in men living in the United States. This brief snapshot paints a grim picture with complex socioeconomic factors exacerbating existing issues and creating new ones. However, I’d like to make things a little more personal and share a brief synopsis of my own journey, a bit for personal catharsis though writing and also in the hopes it may illuminate, or help guide others on their journeys, to let them know they are not alone.


In October it will be three years since I took my last pill for anxiety and depression. I quit for a number of reasons some of which I wrote about years ago at this point. If I recall correctly, just the road getting to that point took about a year of slowly cutting back the milligrams. Since I’d be feeling shitty anyway, I took this time to quit nicotine, pot, and caffeine. After that, it took maybe another year where it felt like relearning just how to breathe. And after that it’s been a cycle of ups and downs, highs and lows. The low’s started off intensely terrible, a constant tightness in my chest, always short of breathe, surprise dizzy spells. During this time it became difficult to leave the house, let alone talk to people, without the sensation of panic overwhelming me, then Covid hit and further isolated me the world.


I spent months bingeing on various streaming services while I slowly struggled on my good days to readjust to simple existence. Even before this time circumstances kept weathering me down where I consistently kept losing creativity, confidence, and becoming more alienated from both people and myself. I haven’t written anything like this in over three years, it also takes far more effort to organize my thoughts into a well structured format. Thankfully, nueroplasticity is a thing and mental atrophy need not be permanent.


The latest symptoms in this readjustment journey have been persistent and intense, though they come and go. At least a year ago now, I finally started getting out again, walking, working out, seeing people. And then I needed a filling – something I’ve done before with no problem, something that cognitively I knew would be quick and mostly painless if a little uncomfortable, But that’s not how my brain wanted to react, it could not tell the difference between a trip to the dentist and being drafted to fight in a warzone. I never liked needles, or drills, but now they filled me with abject terror. My therapist at the time suggested I play the scenario in my head and look at it rationally. Sometimes that helped. Other times I kept running the scenario in my head over and over in an attempt to convince myself of the mundane and harmless nature of the situation. It distracted me from enjoying or focusing on other things and took over six moths before I managed to set up and follow through with the appointment. I even took a pill to help calm me down for a few appointments- the first time it actually made me feel worse.
Then I stumbled across a post talking about Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. And it sounded like me. In fact, the constant visualizing of going to the dentist sounded much like a mental compulsive ritual. In fact, things I’ve done on and off my entire life kept checking off OCD boxes. Before this revelation, I’d never recognized intrusive thoughts as such, they were always just thoughts. Somethings would just get stuck in my brain and would not leave, they’d play over and over in my head just like the dentist.
At this point I felt annoyed, then angry. Are you telling me that for thirty fucking years I may have had some form of OCD and not one doctor picked up on it? With more digging, considering the previous diagnoses and the suspiciousness of the often non-repeating nature of those diagnoses, it really seemed as though mental health disorders and nuerodivergence truly exist on a spectrum; a conclusion others have had long before me to be sure, but a realization the left me feeling frustrated at being placed within singular boxes that would only describe and address certain aspects while leaving others completely unseen then left to undermine any progress.


Although I’d still like to be more active and sharp, even though it’s taking much longer than I’d like, I continue to making progress – slow and tedious as it might be. Turns out, one of the best things you can do with these thoughts is to not fight them, just accept and agree with them then move on. While that’s much easier said than done, it actually does help and many of my recent good days can attributed to this practice. I’m finally feeling a desire to do things with increasing energy to do them, to set goals beyond getting out of bed. This is a necessary journey, but certainly one where if it were possible to skip past all the lows, to jump to the part where the highs aren’t just a reprieve from tension and anhedonia, but enjoyment, instead of the snails trek over a mountain I certainly would.


As much as I have criticisms for both individual doctors and the mental health industry as a whole, both are absolutely crucial and when at their best can save lives. At the same time, it’s also crucially important for you to do some of your own research and be your own advocate.It’s important to realize the amount of effort it can take to overcome these issues and for too many it’s too much. I’ve also been incredibly lucky that I have a support system that’s allowed me to undertake this long journey, many people will not have that option. I can’t promise you that you’ll find the light at the end of the tunnel, you may struggle yet never find that light – there’s no shame in that, the world can be tough to navigate without having to fight battles in your own mind. What I can promise is that you definitely wont find that light if you don’t keep fighting for as long as you can in every way that you can.

~David T.K.~

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My Ugly Journey

SanctuarySometimes it actually is about the destination and not journey.

Once again my life is on hold. And it sucks. It’s difficult to concentrate enough to even write this. Everyday every breath is a struggle like there’s a perpetual tightness in my chest and throughout my body. My sleep cycle has been completely inverted if I’m awake at all. Eating makes this tightness worse. While eating I must be taking in too much air – hyperventilating without being aware of it – because there’s always a period of time immediately after finishing my meal when I need to burp to relieve the increased pressure pushing up from my stomach and into my chest. I’ve been leaving my phone off, or on silent in a drawer to charge because texts or calls send a sudden spike of panic through me. I haven’t been going out much either because whenever I make plans lately my stress level builds until it’s time to leave and doesn’t subside until I return home. It’s been like this for at least a couple of months.

But how did it happen? Well, I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression my entire life. At least that’s the most common diagnosis, but no one really knows for sure I suppose. I’ve also been on and off a variety of medications for the majority of that time. In fact, for over a decade I’ve been on medication, mostly venlafaxine and I’ve managed my symptoms to varying degrees, but it always needs managing.

It’s taken a toll on my relationships, academic pursuits, and job prospects. I can only last a few years at most before whatever job I have at the time literally makes me want to kill myself. Things go well for a while, but then I start feeling sick whenever it’s time for my next shift. Then I start feeling sick on my days off simply anticipating the return. My stomach churns, aches set in, exhaustion overwhelms me to the point where on my days off all I can do is sleep. I become more depressed, irritable and angry. Eventually the symptoms overcome my ability to manage them and I need to quit.

I quit my most recent job this past summer and it felt great. My symptoms nearly all but disappeared and I felt a renewal of energy and optimism. So, I figured at my next doctor’s appointment I’d ask about tapering off my medication since it’s not helping me hold down a job and I still can’t do any kind of public speaking – which was one of the original reasons I wanted to start taking medication again in high school over a decade ago. However, for some unknown reason my insurance coverage lapsed. My next appointment had to be rescheduled because it would cost $100 that I simply couldn’t afford. I was able to call in refills, but they would cost over $300 each which I also couldn’t afford. So, I had no choice but to begin tapering off if only to make my current supply last longer since these medications are not something you can simply stop taking. It went well for a week or so before I had to make a larger reduction, but had to make it too soon. I had been feeling great, better than I had in a long time when suddenly I had a massive panic attack.

I started feeling an intense dizziness that morphed into a sensation I can only describe as what felt like my consciousness being torn away from my frontal lobe. I laid in bed hyperventilating for three days before it went away and at least a month before I no longer felt on the precipice of another attack. Every waking moment I had to be mindful of my breathing to keep everything under control.
My insurance eventually became reinstated and I was able to go to the doctor. I’ve been slowly tapering my dose down, but it’s been a constant struggle. The feelings of anxiety and panic are still very much omnipresent, but dulled down comparatively. And I’m at most only halfway done.

The questions I have now can only be answered by time: Are these symptoms of discontinuation syndrome, or a relapse of my anxiety? If it is discontinuation syndrome, will I be able to handle the side effects? The ones I’ve experienced are apparently mild so far when compared to what other people have gone through. Will I have to be on medication for the entirety of my life? Has my brain been permanently changed by these medications?

I’m not ideologically opposed to taking medication – if it works it works. But so far, nothing has worked well enough. And beyond that it feels like a loose thread, or a splinter in my brain, an anchor tethering me down. For instance, if I want to spontaneously spend the night out I can’t because if I miss a dose I’ll begin feeling sick. If I’d like to take a vacation or travel, not only is it an extra thing to pack, but I have to time it so I have enough, or go home for a refill. And should my insurance lapse again I’ll be totally screwed.

I’m not writing this so people will feel bad for me, or pity me. Quite the opposite. I want people -especially family and friends that I’ve unintentionally withdrawn from as a result of these recent symptoms – to know that I’m not giving up and am actively trying to get well. I want people to know it’s a long and lengthy process. I’d also hope that someone else going through something similar may perhaps find this piece and know they’re not alone.

~David T.K.~

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7/99: Require Subject Literacy In Congress

We had so many problems back in 2012 I decided to compile a list of them, then briefly explain and propose solutions to each issue. I found inspiration in the Occupy Wall St. Movement and Martin Luther’s “95 Theses,” specifically his format and purpose, which led me to my title “99 Theses: Disputations on the Power, Efficacy, and Indulgences of the United States Government, Businesses, and Other Institutions” The “99” of course being a nod to the “99%” of the OWSM as well as the number of issues examined.

Originally it was intended to run as a long, multi-part essay in my local college paper, but it was too long. Around the same time we changed our editors, modifying the piece was put on hold and eventually I just forgot about it for a while. Then a year, or so ago I decided to track it down in my old files and actually edit and self-publish it. I kept coming back to it on and off again for a while until I finally finished my edits. But something struck me: it was too old, too much had changed, and the tone was all wrong for 2018.

As I made all the revisions and updates to each of the 99 theses I also posted some of the longer sections so I could keep writing for the blog while finishing a long overdue project. And unfortunately, while rereading it became clear that almost every problem had gotten worse and the stakes of solving them ever higher. I finally published it this summer (2019 if you’re reading this updated version sometime in the future) so if you like what you read in this section I’d very much appreciate you reading a few of my other excerpts posted here, and here (the intro is the same for all of them so if this is the first one you’re reading you can skip this part next time if you do feel inclined to keep reading). Then, if you like those, I’d appreciate it even more if you gave the whole book a read over! And, as at some point in the future I’d like to revise and update it if need be and it would be great to hear your insights, suggestions and criticisms!

The following is from “99 Theses: Disputations on the Power, Efficacy, and Indulgences of the United States Government, Businesses, and Other Institutions

7 – Require Subject Literacy In Congress

The US education system is in poor shape to say the least. However, this problem doesn’t end with students, but endemic ignorance is demonstrated by many of our leaders on what feels like a daily, sometimes hourly, basis. For instance, climate change: a reality that’s already here and getting worse is controversial and politicized. Almost every scientist and academic institution agrees that climate change is real and human activities are responsible for its rapid pace. But there are still a lot of people who deny this reality even when temperature and severe weather records break in front of their eyes every year. Not to mention much of the more complicated data gathered from satellites and computer simulations of the climate are easily available online. This issue relates back to how we perceive education and intellect in general. Too often is intelligence mocked and ignored when it should be praised and listened to. We must change our attitudes towards intelligence and ignorance. Informed opinions are indeed superior to uninformed opinions. We must lower our tolerance of ignorance especially from those in power.

Members of Congress who continually show ignorance of scientific matters yet sit on committees concerning scientific matters should be forced off those committees or forced to resign from Congress altogether. Members of Congress have demonstrated a lack of scientific understanding on matters of global climate change and even basic human biology- particularly female anatomy- yet despite their ignorance they still shape the policies that directly impact these matters of concern. This ignorance isn’t limited to scientific matters, but basic US history and even the contents of the Constitution. It is at best a national embarrassment. It’s disgusting and mass-homicide at worst. Policies created by inaccurate information costs lives: severe weather exacerbated by human climate change costs lives; women’s health legislation set by ignorant old men costs lives; food and drug safety requirements drafted by food and drug company executives instead of doctors and nutritionists costs lives; and the same can be said of any other policy matter crafted by proud, willful ignorance.

We must not only vote for well-informed candidates, but if there is a lack of well-informed candidates it is our responsibility to find them and convince them to run for office. It should also be made standard policy that any member of Congress participating in any matter must demonstrate at least a working knowledge of the subject at hand. There is no place for ignorance of this magnitude in running a country or forming its legislation and it cannot be tolerated any longer.

 

~David T.K.~

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4/99: Pay College Students

We had so many problems back in 2012 I decided to compile a list of them, then briefly explain and propose solutions to each issue. I found inspiration in the Occupy Wall St. Movement and Martin Luther’s “95 Theses,” specifically his format and purpose, which led me to my title “99 Theses: Disputations on the Power, Efficacy, and Indulgences of the United States Government, Businesses, and Other Institutions” The “99” of course being a nod to the “99%” of the OWSM as well as the number of issues examined.

Originally it was intended to run as a long, multi-part essay in my local college paper, but it was too long. Around the same time we changed our editors, modifying the piece was put on hold and eventually I just forgot about it for a while. Then a year, or so ago I decided to track it down in my old files and actually edit and self-publish it. I kept coming back to it on and off again for a while until I finally finished my edits. But something struck me: it was too old, too much had changed, and the tone was all wrong for 2018.

As I made all the revisions and updates to each of the 99 theses I also posted some of the longer sections so I could keep writing for the blog while finishing a long overdue project. And unfortunately, while rereading it became clear that almost every problem had gotten worse and the stakes of solving them ever higher. I finally published it this summer (2019 if you’re reading this updated version sometime in the future) so if you like what you read in this section I’d very much appreciate you reading a few of my other excerpts posted here, and here (the intro is the same for all of them so if this is the first one you’re reading you can skip this part next time if you do feel inclined to keep reading). Then, if you like those, I’d appreciate it even more if you gave the whole book a read over! And, as at some point in the future I’d like to revise and update it if need be and it would be great to hear your insights, suggestions and criticisms!

The following is from “99 Theses: Disputations on the Power, Efficacy, and Indulgences of the United States Government, Businesses, and Other Institutions

4 – Pay College Students

The cost of higher education has risen, and is still rising, at a meteoric pace that far outruns inflation making it harder to attain especially for low income families. Historically, education has been something for the elites: the wealthy, the nobility, etc. But this is the United States in the 21st century. Unfortunately, we have already largely regressed to this outdated mode where education increasingly something only for the wealthy. The current generation is already straddled with massive college debt and future generations of prospective students know this. The next generation will likely reject the financial risk of a college education altogether. Looming college debt has already led to problems with the economy and the overall quality of life for tens of millions of Americans with no solutions, or relief in sight.

When only the wealthy are able to attain higher education then only the wealthy will maintain the positions that allow wealth to be created. Already, there exists a large population of surplus labor enabling businesses to keep wages low because somebody’s always poor and desperate enough to work whenever current employees burn out, or quit. As education decreases in its accessibility the undereducated will increasingly flood the bottom of job market with even more surplus labor. And, despite what CEO’s might think, this helps nobody, not even themselves, because if the majority of Americans are struggling to pay for essentials, they will not be spending money on other things like new cars, houses, televisions, computers, or any other non-essential products. The owners of many companies will begin making less because no one can afford to buy what they make. This may lead to even fewer jobs being available which will only compound the problem further.

Living costs have increased. The price of a diploma has increased while its value has decreased as has the average salary accompanying said diploma. And often more advanced (and expensive) schooling is required for students to enter their desired field. Students are often mocked when picking a non-business, or non-STEM, major because our society does not truly value the humanities, arts, or education for their own sakes, but because of this stigma and devaluation other fields are oversaturated making employment competitive and difficult to find.

The solution may be to follow the lead of some European nations which have various means of paying for higher education. Some countries like Germany and Finland have free tuition for all students. Others not only have free tuition, but provide students with money so they can live without being forced to work the entire time they’re in school, thus allowing them to better focus on their studies, and presumably also saving them some sanity and stress. This money could from different sources at state and federal levels. If the US can afford to build multi-million dollar fighter jets and stealth aircraft en masse, it can afford to invest in its own future via higher education for all who want it.

 

~David T.K.~

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And Knowing Is Half The Battle!!!

A New Year is starting with a real me… I have been a horrible social media blogger. I have missed 2 months of updates, for this, I am sorry. It has been one hell of a busy couple of months. I’ll start with the physical changes: lots more hair all over, starting to notice some on the face; voice continues to drop, not a baritone yet, but I am on the way. Mentally, well I am happier of course. I am also A LOT more sensitive and need to work on my temper a bit. I’m not flying off the handle or anything, but normally before hormones I was pretty laid back and chill. Now, things that would not anger me do so easily. So how do I work on this you ask? Counseling. Everyone needs someone to talk to besides their other half, or friends, or family, or whomever you confide in. So working on the temper, putting a workout together for all the energy I have lately and things are on the up and up.

Now, on to the meat and potatoes of this blog.

I will never stop saying this education is important, on both sides. It is important to know what changes you are going to experience and to keep your doctor informed of any issues that may arise. Be open to questions, even if they are way inappropriate. No, I am not saying that you need to provide answers if you are not comfortable. I am saying that you should feel confident enough in saying that you’re not comfortable in answering the question.

I have here a list of questions I put together that someone might ask me, I will do my best to answer them with the knowledge I have. I am not a transitioning guru and by no means should I be your only resource. BUT I will do my best to provide answers and resources.

1. “Should I ask this question?”

The only stupid question you can ask me is none at all. Ignorance is intolerance.

Two questions to ask yourself before you ask your question:

“Would I feel comfortable if someone asked these questions of me?”
“Would I ask this question of a non-transgender person in a similar situation?”

2. “Why do I want this information?”

If it is someone you love that is transitioning, you will want to know what is in store for them as well as yourself. I am not the only person transitioning, my whole world around me is. This includes how my wife, my family, and my friends will see me and treat me. I am always open to questions and if they’re not appropriate, or I am not comfortable in answering them I will say so. If you’re asking out of curiosity, they make Google now, where do you think I find my info 🙂 .
3. “Have you had ‘The Surgery’?” “What surgeries have you had?” “Are you planning on having surgery?”

My only hesitation on this question is my own lack of knowledge for FTM surgeries. What I do know is that surgery is expensive depending on health insurance and whether or not I choose to have any surgery relating to my transition will be decided upon as the need arises. Having surgery, or choosing not to, does not make me any less of a man. Further discussion on my private areas can be discussed on case by case basis and individually. Discussing my hormone therapy is quite different and I am always open to discussing those changes.

4. “What does hormone therapy do?”

Well, hormonal changes are different for everyone. It all depends on the age you start them, your health, your weight, your physical activity. Many transgender people, including myself take hormones to bring our bodies more in line with our gender identity. The hormones have a variety of effects, many of which are similar to the effects teenagers experience during puberty. For example the effects of testosterone therapy can include thicker facial and body hair, a deeper voice, increased muscles, and changes in fat distribution to a more masculine body type. Some of these changes are reversible and some are not.

5. “What is your birth name?” “Can I see photos of you before you transitioned?”

While I am always open to answer this, other transgendered folks may not be. If you have been in my life long enough you know my name before I found my path to myself. My name was Jessica and will be legally changing it to Jason at some point. I don’t expect everyone to get on board immediately and have been referring to myself as Jay to ease their transition into my soon to be legal name. As for photos, well I haven’t taken them off of my Facebook so feel free to have a look; I was a cute kid, why wouldn’t I want to show that off?

6. “What bathroom do you use?”

I will answer this question with a question: What bathroom do you use?

7. “So when did you decide to be transgender?”

Ha…..decide? When did you decide to be cis-gendered? Why did you have coffee this morning? I didn’t just wake up in the morning and DECIDE to be myself. It’s something that has always been there. Discovering who I really am has been building and has finally come to the surface. Some of us discover it sooner than others. I feel that this is the time and I was finally ready to be who I really am, to be truly happy with myself.

While there are so many other questions, there is never enough time to answer all of them. Bottom line: you have a question, ask it. I will either answer it, or direct you to someone or a resource that can answer it. OR I will politely tell you that I cannot answer it because I am not comfortable answering it.

 

~Jay Barnette~

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1/99: Implement Holistic Education

We had so many problems back in 2012 I decided to compile a list of them, then briefly explain and propose solutions to each issue. I found inspiration in the Occupy Wall St. Movement and Martin Luther’s “95 Theses,” specifically his format and purpose, which led me to my title “99 Theses: Disputations on the Power, Efficacy, and Indulgences of the United States Government, Businesses, and Other Institutions” The “99” of course being a nod to the “99%” of the OWSM as well as the number of issues examined.

Originally it was intended to run as a long, multi-part essay in my local college paper, but it was too long. Around the same time we changed our editors, modifying the piece was put on hold and eventually I just forgot about it for a while. Then a year, or so ago I decided to track it down in my old files and actually edit and self-publish it. I kept coming back to it on and off again for a while until I finally finished my edits. But something struck me: it was too old, too much had changed, and the tone was all wrong for 2018.

As I made all the revisions and updates to each of the 99 theses I also posted some of the longer sections so I could keep writing for the blog while finishing a long overdue project. And unfortunately, while rereading it became clear that almost every problem had gotten worse and the stakes of solving them ever higher. I finally published it this summer (2019 if you’re reading this updated version sometime in the future) so if you like what you read in this section I’d very much appreciate you reading a few of my other excerpts posted here, and here (the intro is the same for all of them so if this is the first one you’re reading you can skip this part next time if you do feel inclined to keep reading). Then, if you like those, I’d appreciate it even more if you gave the whole book a read over! And, as at some point in the future I’d like to revise and update it if need be and it would be great to hear your insights, suggestions and criticisms!

The following is from “99 Theses: Disputations on the Power, Efficacy, and Indulgences of the United States Government, Businesses, and Other Institutions

1 -Implement Holistic Education

The American Education System is rotten. The United States routinely scores near the bottom when compared to other developed nations in all areas of learning. Intelligence is often mocked instead of praised and we have become obsessed with testing over teaching students. In fact the entire design from K-12 schooling is antiquated factory model intended to churn out as many obedient workers just intelligent enough to operate machinery. This design asphyxiates creativity, deprives our country and humanity of talent located outside traditional pedantic standards.

We must move away from the factory model and towards something that gives each individual child the resources to fulfill their potential evolve our methods of teaching students so they align with psychological insights of different learning styles. An emphasis should be placed more on thinking as opposed to regurgitation of facts. Facts alone without context and without a student’s ability to think critically and understand the importance and implications of those facts impedes a student’s ability to gain any real, applicable knowledge as well as leaving the bigger picture of any subject obscured.

At present the US education system uses the transmission model of education which sees education as something that is transmitted from teacher to student. Its methods are typically rote rehearsal and memorization. However, alternative methods and models of education already exist: freedom-based learning, which emphasizes the students’ desires and interests; social constructivist which views education as something requiring social interaction; critical pedagogy sees education as a means to the goal of bettering the world and its communities, and holistic which includes its own set of values while also recognizing the value in the other models. Several others models exist along with numerous methods that can be mixed and matched from each teaching style.

Other factors are important too. For instance, children don’t need to be separated by age and they won’t be separated as such when adults, so why not try separating them by learning style? Or the fact that the inclusion of recess has shown to benefit a student’s health and learning ability so why not lengthen it instead of cutting it?

Perhaps most obviously, instead of allowing various mandated tests to consume so much time and effort from both teachers and students let’s get back to having teachers teaching and students learning. Many teachers will attest to the drawbacks of such testing including the flaws both in design and implementation. While all students in a certain grade must take the same test, students with learning disabilities for example may not be afforded the proper accommodations to perform as well as they potentially could.

And perhaps most importantly, our culture must also change so intelligence is praised and not mocked. It must change also the way students with atypical learning modes are viewed and incorporate them more fully into the curriculum. Without a child’s desire to learn they likely won’t. If they’re going to be bullied for being a “nerd,” or “teacher’s pet,” or subjected to any of the far crueler things children do to one another; if there is no value in knowledge beyond the classroom; if there’s no one willing to teach them in a way they’ll understand why would a child feel safe enough, or a desire to learn?

 

~David T.K.~

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You Are Not Alone

transphobia

First, an update on the physical changes. Voice: a definite drop in it, cracks a lot which is annoying, but won’t be forever. Hair: Hair is everywhere, I found some on my toes!!!! Back, stomach, legs. Basically hair everywhere except my face. Six months on testosterone and changes are definitely noticeable in my overall body shape and face shape. I have a more “masculine shape” but with soft like features.

So, now that that’s out of the way, time to talk about what really grinds my gears: transphobia. It’s the only way I can logically explain what is going on in the news today. The current administration wants to go as far as take the word transgender out of the dictionary. Like, it will be forbidden to not only be it, but to speak it. So I shall be he who shall not be called that let’s call him she (Harry Potter much?).

What is transphobia? Well, exactly what it sounds like- not liking those that identify as transgender. More specifically from the World Wide Web the agreed upon definition of transphobia “… is a range of negative attitudes, feelings or actions toward transgender or transsexual people, or toward transsexuality. Transphobia can be emotional disgust, fear, violence, anger, or discomfort felt or expressed towards people who do not conform to society’s gender expectation. It is often expressed alongside homophobic views and hence is often considered an aspect of homophobia. Transphobia is a type of prejudice and discrimination similar to racism and sexism, and transgender people of color are often subjected to all three forms of discrimination at once.”

Child victims of transphobia experience harassment, school bullying, and violence in school, foster care, and social programs. Adult victims experience public ridicule, harassment including misgendering, taunts, threats of violence, robbery, and false arrest; many feel unsafe in public. A high percentage of transgender individuals report being victims of sexual violence. Some are refused healthcare, or suffer workplace discrimination including being fired for being transgender, or feel under siege by conservative political, or religious groups who oppose laws to protect them. There is even discrimination from some people within the movement for the rights of gender and sexual minorities.

Besides the increased risk of violence and other threats, the stress created by transphobia can cause negative emotional consequences which may lead to substance abuse, running away from home (in minors), and a higher rate of suicide. (Thank you, Wikipedia, for help on this.)

For more information on this see the link below:

https://www.psychiatryadvisor.com/suicide-and-self-harm/transgender-boys-nonbinary-adolescents-face-highest-suicide-risk-by-gender/article/803336/

It has been scientifically proven that transgender adolescents and children report living a happier, healthier life when support is given from family and friends. I’m not saying every one of my family members needs to be on board, or that my friends need to be 100%. But it sure does help. For my friends who know me best, coming out as a transman was not a surprise. Often I am asked a lot of questions about proper pronouns, what name I prefer, and surgery. The first two I have no problem answering, but as for surgery, well I’m not going to ask you about your parts so I expect the same.

I will never stop saying that a good support system is essential in whatever you decide to accomplish.

If you take a look at the suicide attempt rates, they are much higher among transgendered men (female-to-male). Can I say I haven’t had suicidal thoughts, or perhaps attempted in my life? No, I cannot. As taboo as it is to talk about, yes, I once preferred to be dead then to let my family down. I was raised that my family name meant everything and to always do the right thing, even if it meant I was miserable. Obviously I have finally shaken myself of that thought pattern, but it hurts when you see someone who lives a country apart from their family speak to them every day via web chat and text throughout the day about the most random of subjects. They also group web chat once a week with the ENTIRE family so that everyone can play with the 1-year-old nephew. My family is but a car ride away. Being trans is not why I am not close with them, again a whole other blog that I may or may not post. I may have shaken myself of the thought pattern, but the habit of making sure my family is not disappointed is still there.

At the end of the day anyone whether trans, or not, if you feel alone, YOU’RE NOT. There are numerous support groups and hotlines you can call. If you suspect someone is at risk, there are the SAME hotlines you can call for how to help them. Moral of the story: love is love, taking transgender out of the dictionary will not stop me from being who I am, and the more hate you put onto a certain group of people the more we become targets.

 

~Jay Barnette~

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